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Sunday, August 05, 2007

Greed

Greed is a terrible and yet amazing source of driving force. It manipulates man-kind, brainwashes people, breaks ties, etc. Everyone knows it's evil, it's undesirable and yet so many of us succumb to it. I am almost certain(more than 90%) that this will not happen to me as i am someone who treasures relationships and ties for those who knows me well. For my friends out there, I do hope greed does not take over you cos when that do, you can strike me off your friend's list.

There's someone in the world called Neo Poh Heng, who succumbed to it. Stubborn and hot-temper was his character. Being the youngest in the family, he got lucky and get to pursue a degree, while his elder brother only get to study up to P4, and started working at the age of 12. That wouldn't be possible without the help of his second sister, whose husband took up a loan for him as guarantor.

Time flies. 30 over yrs passed. Their mum passed away recently. They were very sad and mourning over their beloved mum's death. That was 100 days ago. Now, it seems Poh Heng is able to put it all behind. It's not a bad thing. I believe that as his mum, she would be happy for him, unlike his elder brother and second sister. Afterall, all parents love their children. But this is when the problem starts.

Now Poh Heng wants to sell the house and fetch his dad over to his house. No problem with that, afterall his dad dotes on him and he is the only one giving him money every month. The dad is like a machine who is manipulated. He has no say over the decision of the house even though it's his. Now everything's more or less confirmed. Poh Heng schemed so that everything will go into his own pocket despite having 3 siblings. Bad mouth-ing, quarrels, picking on siblings, aggitating them. All ready to break ties in the family. The brother and sister i supposed.

Everything sounded dramatic. This sounds unreal as this is something that will only happen in dramas. But no this is true.

So, let me introduce you to Neo Poh Heng. He is my uncle, 小叔, whom i think will be a 'was' soon.

I felt numb and at the same time sorry for my dad, who is at the receiving end for all his shit. He shouldered responsibility for the family, even though he had 3 sons and 1 daughter, received little education and worked real hard to earn enough for the family and of course to support my grandma. Now that she's gone, everything changes. This made me wonder how much trust we can put in someone. As the saying goes '人心险恶', maybe it's really true. It's really tiring to be watching your back all the time, that's why i choose to put total trust in most of my friends, no matter how close they are. I really see no reason for them to stab me from behind. Anyway enough said. I think i should stop also.

I am not someone who likes to bad mouth pple, or at least this is what i think so. This post really pollutes my blog and I felt really disgusted that this post is in as well.

P.S. this Poh Heng has got nothing to do with the Jewellery shop.

Peace out.

Hongda

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2:16 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Happy Birthday!!

This entry was already 1month late. Nevertheless, i thought this is one birthday i should mark it down so that i can remember for life :) thanks to my sweetie for everything

6June07: A mini celebration at the rooftop terrace of esplanade, with a sweet chocolate cake baked by my sweetie :)

7June07:Celebration@Sentosa, beach!!

Lesson learnt for the day

HD: Bra and Bikinis are the same!

MY: No... Bikinis are for everyone to see but bras for lao gong to see only...

HD: Okay... u win, i lose again...

haha the cake looks good... makes me feel evil

Sweet

I love this pic...

this is how sentosa on 7 june looks like

sandman...

doesn't look that nice...

but it's all for this =)

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12:51 PM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

My little Nephew!

My little Nephew!

This is something that my dear grandma missed out. Meet ur great grandson, my little nephew! isn't he beautiful?

I can feed a baby! :)

That's my sister at the back...

look how amazingly beautiful he is...

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11:29 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

RIP

26 Apr 2006. It's a day i want to remember for life. The day u, my dearest grandma left us for a better place. I really love u granny and i wished i had shown u i really do.

I knew you always loved our company and that's why you travelled all the way down to Woodlands from Ang Mo Kio despite the inconvenience u faced, almost every week. That's why i tried to be home when u came and try to eat whatever u cooked even though it sucked at times. You refused to sleep and spend the night over with us cos of your sleeping condition, fearing that you will cause us inconvenience. And yet you wanted to spend so much time with us that u don't mind going home at 11. With that, I thank you.

You showered us with your unconditional love. A love that pure and nothing else.

But i asked myself, what have i really done for you to let u know i really care? You are always so proud of me for my results, and spur me to graduate and succeed so that i can lead a good life in future and not live a tough life that you experienced. I did work hard thinking i could earn enough to let you lead a good great grandma's life in future, with my sister giving birth in 2month. It's all running in my mind and i hope i had really let u know about it. Or maybe just give you a call often enough to know how badly your asthma attack was days ago.

Too late. When i saw you this afternoon, you were lying motionless in the mortuary. You suffered alone in the morning. I can see you grasping for air, struggling to make preparation for dose of medicine to relieve yourself as your hands trembled. A attempt that succeeded for the past few days but failed today. Finally you made a last attempt to call for help, dialing Uncle's number. You got to him, he rushed down, but everything was too late.

I can feel what you were thinking at that very last moment as you gave up fighting for your life. Still worrying abt us, grandchildren, sons and daughters and most regretfully, failure to wait for 2 more months to carry your first greatgrandson. My heart wrenches as my tears come rolling down uncontrollably.

I had always known myself to be very very fortunate. To have all my grandparents around, no funerals to attend to despite my age. So fortunate that i took it for granted. Why do we always treasure something that's too late to be cherished? We know all these, and yet the cycle repeats itself again and again, showing how fan jian humans are.

I'm sorry but let me grieve for you these few days or weeks, for i know this is not what you wanted it to be. I'll be strong and keep my promise of continue studying hard and achieve good results, be filial to my parents, take good care of my family especially my little brother as i held your hands and kiss you goodbye in the mortuary. I will love as for as long as i live and i really hope you can rest in peace knowing that we all care for you. 26 Apr 07. Day i will not forget. Till we meet again. Cya.

RIP. Goodbye.

love,

hongda.

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8:11 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Headache

Headache

Down with a headache these 2 days. Nevertheless, i had to go school today cos there is a written assignment to be done that takes up 15% of the module. Writing a letter to the editor, oh gosh! I wonder when was the last time i was made to do an essay. maybe 3 yrs ago? no... maybe more... anyway, it's good to see i am still able to cook up with a short essay or letter after so long. I almost died writing that letter.

It really helps a lot to have someone i love showing concern for me. thanks sweetie, for worrying so much, i will be fine by tmr, i promise.

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8:49 PM

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Wah... i cannot believe this...

Pls tell me my eyes are not playing prank on me... nor i am dreaming...

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11:34 AM

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Stay Healthy! Or rather BE healthy!

Alright, as quite a number of my friends already knew, i had been falling sick numerous times for the past 1-2months, and i am really pissed off and sick of whole getting sick cycle. So i am gonna break it now. Here's the plan for the hols. Immediate effect(Be healthy!) includes:

1. Detox for a month! No junkies! (at least minimal)
2. No late night! (12am slp!!!!!!!!!!)

From next week onwards, that's for my stay healthy plan once i get well!

1. Swimming, at least twice a week.
2. Jogging, at least once a week.
3. Weights, at least twice a week.

Basically at least 5 days with body workout. Anyone wanna play squash pls jio me! haha but i guess only for weekends since i am working during weekdays.

Now, other things to do in this hols.

1. Pack wardrobe! (it's in a mess!)

2. Pack notes! (50% done)

3. Tidy up my taiwan trip photos!(i think it's only 20% done now... haiz)

that's all i can think of... ganbate!

*EDIT*

4. Oh yah just thought of it... start calling up tuition agency!! Or anyone got any tuition lobang? pls let me know eh?

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3:12 PM

A small getaway with a lesson to be learnt

Had an outing with my OG last wednesday. It feels good to be out in the sun again after the one-month long torturing studying for examinations. It's been sometime since i last went Sentosa as well. Although the turn-out wasn't as good as i was expecting, i enjoyed myself. Playing beach games such as frisbee and touch rugby. Cai-ing quan in the deep seawaters proves to be fatal as well. Sleeping on the beach under the mild sun is super shiok as well.

Anyway, here's some picture that we took that day when we were about to leave palawan cos i forgot i brought my camera along! hah!

It's always good to see friends getting together as couple. All the best Sara and Kyle haha :)

Anyway, just something for all to ponder. Do u think organisers of an event like the turn-out to be kns? If no, just something for all to note.

1. Don't ask the 'who's going' question. Just let the organiser know whether u ARE coming or not.

2. Worse still, making the organiser list down each and every souls who's going.

3. Worst of all, continue asking for names when the organiser already tried listing down at least 7-8 souls out of courtesy, instead of hanging up to u.

4. Late-comers. Although i am usually late, it's usually 5-15mins late? 30mins sometimes. Anything more, usually i will know beforehand and let the organiser know the time that i will be reaching. So if u were to be many many hrs late, just because u chose to schedule some appt before the event, means u place no importance in the event itself right? Dun bother coming then. Seriously, as a person i dun like to attend something just for the sake of it. So as an organiser, i wouldn't expect pple to come when they dun feel like it as well.

5. No shows. There's a saying. Chi Dao Hao Guo Mei Dao. So much so pple do come late for hrs, i still believe any organiser will appreciate the effort individuals made in order to come. There are different classification of condemnation of no-shows.

(i) The individual sms-ed the organiser informing about his/her no-show after the time to meet already passed

(ii) Organiser sms-ed only to find out the person isn't coming

(iii) Organiser sms-ed but no reply (hello? so are you dead already?)

6. Don't ask the 'who's still coming' question. You already made it great by showing up, dun downgrade yourself by asking this kind of question. To have read this far, i am sure u agree that no organiser would like the turn-out to be kns, so he is trying his best as well!

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1:51 PM