Sunday, August 20, 2006
WARNING
WARNINGI am no push-over. I had mentioned in my previous posts before, don't take your friends for granted. Just a piece of advice for everyone, behind every smile of mine, no matter how 应酬 it is at times, it's for maintaining friendships/relationship, simply because I treasure every friend I made. The act of hating is tiring, thus the reason why i rather tolerate with friends at times, and just smile whatever fuck i am receiving away than to release the button for volcanic eruption. If that makes anyone think that I am joker, who doesn't dare to express his views or stands, then you are very wrong. Just a quick character analysis on myself for anyone who doesn't really know me well.
I have got very high expectation on myself and with that, i strive to be the best, if not, to be one of the best. I am a rather independant person, with many close friends, which means i don't really lack of friends. Someone who watches his weight and will panic when there's rubber tyres around the waist. That accounts for the fact that I am exercising so often, enjoy sports, especially seasports as i like to be tanned but yet lazy to train myself to be a hunk, simply because doing weights training is super boring. I don't enjoy clubbing at all so there is any clubbing outing, that wouldn't be organised by me. I am a bad tempered, impatient adult at heart who had been chased outta house before by parent for beating my brother up to an extent they cannot tolerate anymore. Not forgetting punching my friend for splashing water on me. Over the years, I cultivated and strengthened self-control and self-restraint. These are the angels in me. Angels keeping my devils away, so that they will lie domant as long as possible. Trust me, not even a single soul would stand an erupted Hongda. Scary? I am not sure as well, it's been a while since i last saw an erupted self.
And yet, while typing this, i can feel the angels in me are getting exhausted. However, understanding the consequence of taking a rest, hence letting the devils out would be disastrous, they are hanging on. But just how long can they hold their defences, with the devils growing exponentially and angels running lower and lower on energy as the day goes by. So, do you want to be the one helping the devils grow in number, or giving the angels more energy?
So, let me just clarify this once and for all. Just in case anyone is bewildered by what's going on in my tagboard. The rumour started when we had our first OG outing, when i supposedly seemed to be helping this gal, Huimin more than the others. And with that, linkings were made to the SP, DXO night, when i didn't join the rest at the dance floor and was seen by people talking to Huimin upstairs. As the rumour got more and more outta hand, she got attached. Rumour continues, that I had lost the battle with a broken heart. Pple came asking how am i feeling, asking me not to be sad. To some who found all these amusing, seriously, I don't find it funny at all.
No doubt, i do think she's a good gal. Liking? Maybe a little but i don't have 'THAT' kinda feeling as of now or then, and will never have now that she's attached as well.
So, i do hope this clarifies everything up. Just when i thought i am going to flood this post with all the vulgarities i knew before i got started, i did not. I guess it's my angels' work again. Thanks to them. Just as i choose not to delete any unnecessary post on my chatbox as i respected every friend of mine who took their time visiting my blog, even if i am not respected, pls respect the gal by putting a fullstop to this.
Lastly, fuck off.
Peace out.
- {hongda} - blogged at
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